Whats the point?!?

Boom Boom

Why am I here? Why is this my life? What is the purpose of my existence?

Boom Boom

My head pounds me down to the ground with unseasonal pain.

The joy from my face is lost in the darkness

The darkness that seems eternal

I cry out for the pain to stop for me to understand what this means

To know what is me who am I what is life why does anything have meaning

The darkness surrounds me laughing with the joy I lost in it

It tells me my pain will be everlasting and there is no way out

I try to stand up hoping this is a dream I can control

I try to fight the darkness but my head pounds me down and down to the ground until I reach the depths of the earth

Boom Boom

By:Luna B

Keep your head up

Keep your head up

Smile

This too shall pass

Keep walking

This pain is temporary

Your eyes will regain hydration and your head will stop pounding

Look in the mirror and see the silver lining

Keep the emotions un-bottled

Wreck everything, throw paint around, write awful things

LET IT OUT

This is miniature in the scheme of things

So keep on moving along.

By: Luna B

Family

I walk away with tears down my cheek.
I walk away without joy.
I try to catch up with you guys but the tunnel for you begins to close.
I keep trying and I fall into a hole filled with paper.
So I fill myself with work and try not to look back but we move as one
I am not a heartless loveless person so I look back and forward.
The tunnel isn't closed to you I just go down that path yet
I must stay on this path my path and one day the tunnel to you and the path I am on will co-exist and neither will close.

By:Luna B

Poem of the Day

The presence of me is minimum I know but thats life for the next few days and posts it might just be poetry. I have had a lot of inspiration and words just come to me that do not really reflect what I have been through but just say that they must come out so here you go:

Look at me.

Open your eyes and see me.

I see your pupils but I don't see you looking at me.

Look at me.

Don't you see I need you to look at me?

Can't you see I am fighting for you to look at me?

Can't you see these cuts on my arm?

They are for you.

They are here for you to look at me.

Just once look at ME.

By:Luna B

What do you see?

This poem is not about my experience. I have not experience this but I know a lot of girls my age and older who have. I know there are a lot of poems like this but this is mine. This is one that I had to get out. I know I have no experience and can not feel what they feel but that does not mean I don't see the pain. I am sorry to those who are offended but these are my words and thats all I got to say. Here it goes:

Your eyes are the rosy color of joy

You see my body say yes

You grab my arm with gentle ease

You sing a song of sweet beauty

You brush back just a stain of my hair that barely moves

You tell me how beautiful I am. A woman you say I am turning out to be.

You stop and stupefy in public but behind closed doors you forever penetrate my innocence.

You see what you want:

While I scream for my mother to save me, you hear me scream your name.

While I fight you off, you see four play in full action.

While my eyes are dilated and forever widened with paranoia, your eyes are the rosy color of joy.

You forever have your rose colored glasses on me; while taking my rose colored glasses away along with my forgotten innocence.

By:Luna B

Arguements

I have realized that I think differently. Many of the environment issues discussions and English 104 discussions I think something totally different. In English my mind mixes art, other literature, other years, other perspectives, and other genres. I mix all of these to examine a book or even a line. My mind wanders about what the author was thinking and why in the "classical"/old books do they go into such details. So much so that they loose the reader. In environmental issues my mind base things on my beliefs that it is all humans fault, that the money we need is worth losing to save the environment but in reality these things will not be able to happen because of the human's complex, that everything revolves around them and that if it is not immediate satisfaction then it is not needed. Also that the environment is the last thing on every one's point of interests lists and that even though many people are doing small tasks it is still not enough to make a major dent in society's debt to the environment. I am not saying that if enough people get together and actual change that it won't make a dent I am saying currently no affect. I think about all these things in class and in environmental issues they listen but go somewhere else with it and in English I am always shot down like no that is not the way to interpret it. He constantly says that "its possible but..." It makes me think that many English professors are stuck in their error they know so much about their subject and have mastered it but that is it. They have read every criticisms and everything but they can not apply new thoughts or different ones to what they know. It is like putting mayonnaise on a PBJ for them, but that is English professors for you. FYI: I have had four previous English professors already. I am not a master at their complex,yet, but I know a little something.

ME

You know I realized something over these past few days. Even though I do not do a lot of the things I can do. I am an artist. I can finely say it. I love science but I am also an artist. I do not like to be confined to s certain way to doing things. I like my mind to wander and to argue points that make since to me. So many academics are in one set way and do not think of things in different ways. They are so focus on that one subject they have mastered. I realized that I do not want to be confined to one set way of thinking or one way to enjoy my life. When I say enjoy my life I mean my career. I plan to continue my education and stay on my path but also to allow my creative side to blossom as well. I know that is going to be difficult but they are both what I love to do and that is the point of all of this. Not to make money, not to party. For me this college experience is about getting to know me, loving myself, doing things that I love, and continuing that into the real world. Dreams don't pay the rent but money doesn't fulfill you.

Poem of the day

Run through here and don't stop
make your impression like no other
understand what is going
jump when the time is right
go forth and do your thing
go weave through there like there are no problems
get jumbled up and confused
stop like your at a traffic light
Imagination, inspiration go through my mind everyday

Daily Intake

Music has consumed my whole week and weekend. It was mad crazy. I was getting so much music and I am and was so happy. I got all the new kanye west songs, new diggy simmon, and some B.O.B and Drake. Also other random songs that are on the radio now a days. I have to say again Kanye West is a genius. I absolutely positively love B.O.B's music. He not only can mix genres together but also can rap hard as I don't know what. He did not come out with another cd but I got a mixtape of his I don't know if it is new but still it was fire. I was inlove with B.O.B' music before but after listening to this I am even more in love with his music. And surprisingly Diggy Simmons mixtape was not bad. It was actually pretty good. He has alot of songs that I actual listen to a lot. My mother actual made me download his mixtape and I had to listen to it since it was now downloaded and not to shabby man. Some of the songs are actually talking about something. It was so shocking. The drake stuff was just a djs mix of his album and that was great. I usual don't like mixes but I liked this one. Man I realized I love music not only by finding all these awesome songs, listening to all my old music, singing at step singing, and being just plain old me. Music man I can not live without it. Yeaher

Daily Intake

The life of a college student is a super busy one. Between trying to live and be yourself, make friends, keep friends, doing work, studying, loving your family, and giving yourself some much need me time. Its a whole lot to keep up with. But hey thats what you gotta to do to get done what you need to get done. Its like go go go around here. Constantly doing something which is good but also heckted. But I think I found a rhythm I can use. I am still experimenting with schedules and trying to fit in time other things I want to do. I will figure it out trust me on another hand:


Kanye West is indeed a beast with his killer singles out now. Which is totally awesome you can download for free from his websites. I found that ultra cool. I am not a groupie person. I am person who believes celebrities are just people with talent no different from everyone else. That being said that man is a pure genius when it comes to lyrics, beats, and anything artistic. I am so excited about his album and his performance at the VMAS was kickbutt. Man he had ballerinas, a hard hitting rap and another hard hitting rap artiists, a switch between auto tune and his regular voice, and mixing on it all at the same time. No one can stop that man. Its just ridiculous. He is just as I and my mother say a GENIUS man.


Well thats all I got for ya. Unti lnext time....

Daiy Intake

Well this week of school was pretty good. I got all my necessary books, hung out with real people, watched plenty of movies, and love my family always. I also read for classes and one of the books is Uncle John's Organic Bathroom reader. It is a good and funny read. It is really meant to be read in the bathroom. It is simple, funny, and the facts are true. Now I read a passage awhile ago that stuck with me. It stated the facts about the reality of humans living on the moon and if it gets worse enough here will NASA have the moon base set up. Well the bathroom reader did not take a side on whether we should do that or not they just stated the facts. I will take a stand. I believe to be stupid, selfish, and another power move. How dare humans believe they have the right to take over another planet or star moving in the solar system. And I believe if we can kill one planet if we have the ability to live on any others we will kill them as well. I don't care what anyone says if the earth goes under I think we should all be the captains going down with the ship. It is all of our faults.
One another point I have watched so many movies it might be ridiculous. I have watched Youth in Revolt an awesome movie that is another great one for Michael Cera. 500 Days of Summer another awesome movie that is truly about love and relationships. What about the morgans? an average movie that I could have done without. Delgo a cartoon movie that was an average movie but I would watch it again however I would not buy it. Dakoyta Skye an awesome movie about well thats just it I don't know but it was a great Teen movie and love story. Then she Found me which was a pretty good movie about an adult who's birth mother finds her and she goes through a lot of stuff with her it is amazing. Wow and so many more that were either good or horrible. Thats a great description I know.

Well thats all for now.

Poem of the Day

You give me joy when pain is all I see.
You laugh so contaigiously it makes me stop crying.
You love with all your heart and I can tell the way
you know when I am upset and are determined to make it right.
you talk to me and stay by my side even when I (and I will) snap at you.
you hold my hand and grab a bat when we are scared.
you cry when you know I am gone.
Just the way you love me little brother!!!

By: Luna B

Daily Intake

So hello world again. It is so beautiful in this world. The fog that covers an area in the break of day and the warmth that engulfs people in the setting of night. I just love the scenery. I hear people everywhere talking about the "big" topic "HATERS." Everyone wants one and everyone wants to talk about them. Well I don't lets talk about lovers about the love that is given to you everyday. Not that you have to have a significant other but what about your family. Lets spread the word about love because many people are forgetting about it. Hate does not fuel my day Love does. The love I get from the two that mean the most fuels me to keep going if I am in the deepest of deep GRAY!!!! And you know there is no such thing as hate because as Erykah Badu said " There are only two emotions humankind experience fear and love." -DEAL WITH IT!!!!!!!

Whats UP?!?!

I know its been awhile but settling in a new place takes awhile. So I am scheduling mandatory blogging times to let my viewers know I am still here and making a fuss about something.

Daily Intake

So I have had this inspiration bug. I have just written two poems off the top of my dome. I am so inspired by all of Maya Angelou's autobiography books and things I see everyday. I wrote these poems on my own and in my head. I realize I have not had two poem of the days but today is special. Today I had the inspiration to do it. And when you got that feeling you just have to let it all out. Inspiration comes once in a life time. Especially for me when I am trying to write great poems that have true meaning. You can never force a good poem out. It just has to come to you and these two did. So I hope you enjoy. That's all for today.


Always Laughing Luna B,

Poem of The Day

You stand by my side whispering my sweet definition
You look into my eyes blinded by the many lies
You steer me to the path of your choosing
You ask not if I am okay
You give me the joy of knowing where I am going
You give me the pleasure of knowing your every thought
You ask not if I am okay
You step in the way of danger
You sweep me off my feet
You take care of everything
You ask not if I am okay
You give me thee joy of not having to think
You grace me with things to do to please only you
You define me and you
You ask me not if I am okay

By: Luna B

Poem of The Day

Validation


I need no validation
I validate my own parking
I need no valet directing me where to go
I steer my own path
I need no validation
I define myself for myself
My definition is not to satisfy any one's needs but my own
I need no dictionary telling me who I am
I tell myself everyday who I am
I need no validation
I validate my own parking.

By: Luna B

Sporadic Quotes

"I Validate my Own Parking"

Quoted by Luna B.

Home

I am about to leave the place I have called home for over ten years. It is not about the town, or the houses I have lived in. It is about my family. The people I have been with my whole life who make up the place I have called home. People are mistaken when they say home is everywhere. No home is the people you love and you connected and intertwined in a web of love. A home is what I have had all my life no matter what house we were in, no matter what apartment we were in, and no matter what I did I always had a home. I still have a home I am just leaving it physically. I will still have it no matter where I go because I am always loved unconditionally by my family.


This is for my family who I soon must physically leave. I will always love you guys!!!

Always with you Luna B,

Sporadic Quotes

"We Move As One"

The motto of my family. We do not throw each other under the bus or let each other fall if one is down we all are down. If one is up we all are up because we move as one.

Daily Intake

OK so new thing told to me: "Your name is Luna B and you are a lover not a fighter." That was told to me by my mother while I was trying to wrestle my brother. I know I have less upper body strength but what blow she through by saying that. I actual can get upper body strength but only when I am angry or very focused. I don't like fighting and pretty much was the weird girl in school on purpose so people would not mess with me. Oh but trust if anyone hit me I would have attacked. I am known to not play fair because of my petite body and my lack of upper body strength. So I even the playing field by fighting with anything in my reach. I however, have swore never ever never ever ever grab some one's hair. That is A. Stupid, B. Dangerous, and C. I would kill someone if they did that to me and I wouldn't want anyone to kill me so yeah.

I got out of my funk today and did some stuff I have been wanting to do. I got rid of old email accounts got new GMail accounts and got a twitter. I really do not want to use like everyone else. I just want to put quotes that are inspirational to me on there and that is ALL. I also discovered that I am going to keep building up inventory for my crocheting business and prepare the world for that. I love crocheting, writing poetry, and painting so that is what I am going to do to keep sane. I am also going to keep on towards my dream and goal of becoming a Marine Biologist. Nothing can stop me form that. I will help in others' research and be in the lab doing what I love best being challenged.

Well that is it for now.

Always Laughing Luna B,

Sporadic Quotes

"Hope for the best. Prepare for the worst. And never expect anything."

Quote from "A Song Flung To Heaven" By: Maya Angelou.

Poem of the Day

This is a Conversation between the two sides of me. The Right and Left Side of my brain:


"Pick One"- Lady B
"Pick what?" -Luna B
"Pick a word" -Lady B
"A word to say to the people?" - Luna B
" Yes" -Lady B
"Just one word?" -Luna B
"I choose undefinable...I choose this word because that is how I feel about everything I am and everything in general. I feel words are too small and too overused.

One word....One word I choose...I choose undefinable!!!"- Luna B


By: Luna B

Daily Intake

You ever just woke up in a funk?!? I did today.It kind of ruined my day to the fact I have no Daily InTake but I always have something...

Sporadic Quotes

"Do or Do Not There is No Try"

Quote by Yoda/ My mommy told me that one time.

Poem of the Day

This poem was inspired by older woman and words written that I just happened to spot:

I rise but my heart sags low.

I love but my soul is worn.

I have joy but my eyes are sore.

I laugh but my days are few.

I live everyday with no regret.

I laugh and keep smiling even though my days are few, my soul is worn, my heart sags, because the good out weighs the bad.

The good: I love, I live, have joy and rise everyday!!!

By: Luna B

Daily InTake

What a fabolous day it is turning out to be. I am filled with contentment. I have had a break through again with my family life and myself. I realized that my mother is correct I have always tried to be my brother's mother and he already has one. I guess its so easy to want to have that power and let him know no matter what I got you. Plus I have always been preparing for the worse and I wanted to make sure I could take care of him even though my mother never wanted me to give up so much of my life. I realize that I am a good sister I just have to stop trying to be the mother he already has. WOW What a break through right?!?

I also have cleaned up my room. Whenever something is off in my life or there is something to learn my mind goes crazy and my room looks a hot mess. Well when I have break throughs and learn the lesson I clean my room and it looks great. It looks great despite the fact I have my luggage and totes in it. I organized the ones that are packed and ready to go. While the other two are waiting to be filled. One is going to meet its end today while the other won't be until we leave.

I am not ready to go but I know I have to go. I really am excited about it but I know I am going to miss my family terribly. This is just a change we have to make together and understand that the family does not change and the place we call home does not change only the presence of one person changes. So Yeah!!! A Change is gonna Come- This is one of my favorite songs. I like Al Green version the best. The soulfulness of his voice and the meaning of the song is overwhelmingly powerful. It makes me want to rise up and cry every time I listen to it.

Well That is all for now!!!

Always Laughing Luna B,

Sporadic Quotes

"Life is tragic simply because the earth turns and the sun inexorably rises and sets, and one day, for each of us, the sun will go down for the last, last time"

Quote from James Baldwin "The Fire Next Time"

Poem of the Day

This poem was written when I was in a state of pure anger and resentment:

You want me to smile and say everything is fine.

You want me to ask but not mean it.

You want it to be so easy for us.

Well its NOT!

Life is not easy and neither is any relationship.

I am supposed to look up to you but I don't.

I am supposed to respect you but I don't.

You're supposed to care but you don't.

You are supposed to be here but you're not.

By: Luna B

Daily InTake

• Wow these days of waiting to leave for college have been crazy and pretty horrible. I have more than five days until I leave and I have already packed up most of my stuff. Its not because I am ready to leave but because it is by force of habit. I have a habit of putting pressure on myself saying the day is sooner than it really is. So I can prepare early. Its sort a way to push away my inherited trait from my mother of procrastinating.

• Guess what? I saw SALT. It was awesome. Angelina Jolie is really the greatest actress for action movies. The only other person I saw do a good job was the lady from UnderWorld. Speaking of UnderWorld the most awesomiest action movie. UnderWorld is one the best story/movie about vampires and werewolves The other best one was the movie with Brad Pitt the movie title slips my mind but when I remember it I will share its glory.. Twilight's story is unbelievable I mean truly stupid and The Gates and TrueBlood is Tv so it is always going to fall short. Anyways SALT totally awesome. I am so going to but that bad boy on dvd.

• Oh and I have been reading Maya Angelou's Autobiography series and it has been giving me the keys of wisdom I need. They are truly great stories and I usually hate autobiographies really biographies period. They are usually boring and have a way about them to be lacking a way to reach me as an audience member. Maya Angelou tells a story I can listen to and understand. I can comprehend what she is saying and take a minute while I process the whole meaning of the story. It really has been mind blowing reading her story.

Well thats it for now.



Always Laughing Luna B,

Daily InTake

• So I went to see two recent movies that were totally awesome. They were: Dinner for Schmucks and The Other Guys. Both classic comedies. They both were hilarious kept me and my family laughing. The Other Guys was a little different then most movies Will Ferrell is in but still hilarious. I loved both movies and want to own them.

• I also have been working on this big crochet project is supposed to be a scarf/shawl. It is taking awhile because it so big. My mother is making me at the same time read 10 books before I leave home. All of the books are classics that most black woman/ young ladies should read. Such books as: I Know Why The Cage Bird Sings, The Heart of a Woman, The Bluest Eyes, The Eyes Were Watching God, and etc... She wants to me not only know the gists of the understanding of the books which I already do but know the books. So Yah me. I just got through the first book and it was not a bad read. It is the I know Why the Cage Bird Sings. It was an excellent book but very sad which is why I had to see two new comedies to keep me smiling. It had many messages that I am still interpreting and trying to get the gist of. Most of the messages are very powerful and make you think just like the other book I just read The Fire Next Time by James Baldwin. Although The Fire Next Time for me was more of an essay and took me longer to read and get the messages. I understand why my mother wants me to read these books but I wish she would have given them to me earlier in the summer. I would have knocked out most of them and had many discussions with her about the meanings to me. Right now I am just trying to hurry up so she won't be upset.

Well that is all for now.

Always Laughing Luna,

YO YO

Well I tried the organized and civilized way of doing this blog and you know what I am changing it up AGAIN. I know I change every few times but it because like this blog I am finding myself. I am seeing what I like and dislike and writing a post everyday about critiques and such is not what I like it gives me no excitement. So I am going off the dome from now on. No more planning and preparing. I do that enough in life this time I am sporadic on that. Yeh Yahr. Slang on paper and in typing just does not work. So here it is me unprepared and unorganized. I know there aren't people really reading this but I am and I am going to make it something I like to read.

Uniquely Critiquing

Where the Wild Things Are?= 2 1/2 Gs and ****

This was a great movie. It was very sad and it goes over the heads of most little kids. I understand it was made for kids but the concepts in the movie and the message of the movie seemed to need a grown-up and teenager maturity level. The youngest generation in my household thought it was too sad to watch. It was overwhelming depressing to them. It was amazing for me. I give this movie 2Gs but I am still going to buy it just for myself because it was **** for me.

Sporadic Quotes

"What they believe, as well as what they do and cause you to endure, does not testify to your inferiority but to their inhumainty and fear."

-James Baldwin

Poem of the Day

The Light is so bright. It hurts to look up.
I hold the dark on my back constantly trying to look up.
“Look down” says the light
“Don’t you dare try to be higher than me” – the light
“Look down” says the light
“You can never be me”- the light
“Look up” says my heart
“Look up” says my spirit
“You are not the light but you do not have to be”- heart and spirit
“Look up” says me
“You are inferior to no one and you make your own light”- me
“So look away while I shine brighter than you. Look away while I make your nightmares come true…”-me
“Look away while I do my thing”- me
“Look away light don’t look down and don’t beat yourself down while I become my own light.” - ME

Uniquely Critiquing

How To Train Your Dragon? = 3Gs and *****

This was an awesome movie. Its great for the whole family. It shows that being unique and different is okay and that it makes a person stronger. On top of a great story it had a great length to the story and the movie, great action, and so believable. It was just a great all around movie. I saw it in 2D so I can only imagine it in 3D. I give this movie five stars for my personal review and so go but it now. Its a movie you will want to keep.

Crafty

Several Crochet Items I just made with my crafty hands.

Visual Inspiration

By: Luna


This photo was taken while looking outside of a plane. It shows that this world is bigger than all of us.

Poem of the Day

Trip on... Trip over your greatness.
Trip over your obstacles you came over without ease.
Trip over your intelligence.
Trip over... Trip on...
Come on girl Trip over your enigma of a personality.
Trip over your natural beauty.
Trip over the light that is your beautiful and unmanufactured soul.
Trip over the entagled; curled up; whirled up; unweavable purely natural hair.
Trip over your quarks and smirks.
Trip on girl.
Trip over yourself.
Go ahead and Ego Trip.

BY: Luna B


This is a poem in response to Nikki Giovanni's "Ego Trippin"